Quite Indecisive

So you may or may not have noticed that I changed the name of this blog. It started out as The Little Wanderer. It is now Storm Bird. When I first had the idea of starting my own blog, the first name seemed appropriate. I was and still am exploring a new chapter of my life. Over time, it started to not sit well with me. I wanted something that really meant something to me. So, finally, the incredibly indecisive person that I am settled with Storm Bird.

It took a lot of time and lot of thinking before I changed it. This blog is in the early stages of it's life and now is the best time to make changes such as this, I decided.

My favorite quote. 

There are a couple of reasons that I chose this name and it is a bit personal. I hold it dear to me. I've always been very drawn to stormy weather. I absolutely love it and I feel like everything in me becomes electric when it storms. I can't explain it. It's a mysterious feeling. My parents told me that I was born during a very chaotic thunderstorm in the late hours of the night, or I guess you could say early hours of the morning. I believe it was around two or three something. My dad said that when he was waiting out in the hall, he was staring outside this tall window at the trees bending under violent winds and the lightning flashing. The thunder was incredibly loud. While he was watching this storm, he said he knew it meant something about me. That it meant I was going to be "something else." Sometimes I think that being born during a storm has something to do with the way one makes me feel.

Not too long ago, I was at a church retreat with some of my family. There were these little stations set up in this large, open room by this really impressive fireplace. It ended up being a very cold, rainy weekend so canoeing and hiking were out of the question. One of the little stations had a couple of books. The directions on the card which was placed next to them explained how you could use one book to look up the meaning of your name. The other provided verses in the bible that related to your name. I had been told that my name meant victorious and conqueror before. My name is derived from Victoria, which I sometimes choose to go by now. Legally, though, my name is Tori. I found out that my name is actually Japanese for "bird" and I seemed to connect with that. Maybe it's really silly and teenager-like, but back when I was younger in the early years of high school, I started trying my hand at writing lyrics and poems. I was always drawn to the metaphor of being a caged bird waiting to fly. That's how I felt. A little cheesy? Maybe. But do I connect with it? Yes. When I finally started growing more into I really was and had the opportunity to go to Nashville, to leave that town in the dust, I felt like that cage door finally opened. I also really adore birds.

I know there are many more cage doors to be opened, to fly through. That's part of life and I am very excited about it. I guess you could say there's a restless storm within me. So, that is where the new name for this blog, and I guess for myself, has come from. Thank you for letting me share.